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Innocence
it's so fragile, a rare feeling
that sooner or later will fade into the eternal blackness
The blackness, darkness
swallows it whole
and your mind becomes clear for a moment
On that short moment
all your thoughts turn into some other direction than they originally were
It's a moment when you feel lost
you feel like you're dying inside
A blackout
The darkness moves out and it all becomes clear
you start to think realistically
and you hate to know all these facts
that swim trough your brain everyday
every hour
minute
and even every second
No matter what you do, you always have the thought at the back of your head
The thought of life, and reality.

Sooner or later
People will fade from your life
sooner or later
they will all die
sooner or later
the same fate is coming for you
Sooner or later
everyone will forget your existence

and sooner or later
you will forget yourself too
as the old age comes with it's bad side
You can't go to bathroom alone
you can't control your body's natural ways
People have to help you to clean yourself
and you feel embarrassed
and sooner or later, you might forget who they are
you recall the names, but can't connect them to the persons visiting you
You lose the ability to speak properly
and see things you used to see
And people will stop visiting you, maybe just for a moment
but it's enough time for you to lose yourself

You will die eventually
and if you're aware of this fact
everyday seems like a struggle
because you know what will happen in the end
that everything you have done might become meaningless
as you leave this world behind.

It's the ugly truth of the reality.
People often ask me, what do I think about life
and sometimes, if they know about my past, they keep asking how I feel about it
It feels like they're scared that I'm going to kill myself someday
It's hard to explain this to them, how I see the ugly truth about life

I don't want to grow old and forget my family, my friends, myself.. I don't want anyone to take care of me because I can't do it myself

It's pretty annoying to have these thoughts in your head all day long, but no one to talk to in real life
because they don't care, or understand

....
Fucking hell.






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misscheeseycake Featured By Owner May 24, 2013
Cool Zacharie picture
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MinZki Featured By Owner May 24, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Heh, thanks
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misscheeseycake Featured By Owner May 25, 2013
Your welcome
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Zero-G-Raven Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I really like this. I share so much with this that I feel like you know exactly how I feel about stuff! Wonderful wording and I love how forward it is. No holding back! You tell it like it is!
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MinZki Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Thanks! I'm glad that people liked this one
Going to post more of this on next week perhaps

It was a bit struggle to put words right since the English isn't my native language xD But I'm glad to hear that the message was still clear
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Zero-G-Raven Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Well your English is pretty good. Yours is better than some of the people who have lived here their entire lives XD Seriously.
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MinZki Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Haha, Really? xD Well I'm glad to hear that
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Zero-G-Raven Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Really, no joke at all! XD
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MinZki Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Oh geez xD That's actually shocking
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Zero-G-Raven Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
XD Indeed it is.
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